bored, Bored, BORED!!

So I'm at work, and one would think that would mean I was working, right? WRONG! I am so very very bored! Why do you ask? Well, because I'm a desk sitter. I sit at a desk. This is what they pay me to do. AND IT SUCKS!! Don't get me wrong, I have the occasional project come through the ropes down to lil ol me, but most of the time, I don't. And so I sit here. And wait for 6:00pm to come so I can go be PRODUCTIVE! Well... not exactly. Because by the time I battle downtown traffic to get home, make dinner and catch up with my husband, its 8:30 and we're too tired to do anything! So I get up, I go to work, I sit at a desk for 9 hours, I leave, I do wifey things like make dinner and wash the dishes, and then I'm too tired to do anything else, and it starts all over again. What a routine!

I've been looking for a new job for a few months now. Secretly. On the side. Like, I sneak out on my lunch break to go meet with a potential employer, or have an interview, and then I sneak back to my desk and pretend I was just at the post office, or waiting in line at the bank. I pretend Im the most valuable employee they have. Even though I secretly wish they would fire me sometimes to put me out of my MISERY! But then I realize how blessed I am to have a job, not only a job, but one that pays well, provides me health benefits and a laid back atmosphere where I can listen to music all day. I just wish it wasn't SOOO laid back. It's boring. Uneventful. Dull. Here I am, fresh out of college- full of eagerness and excitement to join the workforce and learn and climb that corporate ladder. Instead my college degree is put to use as a desk sitter. And unfortunately for me, I don't think that postion is in high demand anywhere else.

So as I ramble off I realize ONCE AGAIN how horribly ungrateful I sound. What a scrooge I have become!! HELP!!